七月上班路

這一年是畢業年,本該以一次團體旅行作句點。可惜世事不如我意,學生的身份隨着七月份上班的消息而終止,二十年的學生生涯亦以兩次的一人旅行匆匆地告一段落。

不知不覺,三個星期已經過去。那顆想玩的心慢慢地被工作一點一點地磨滅。慶幸的是,現在所做的工作是我所愛的,縱使辛苦,卻不知疲憊。第一個星期,我安靜地獨自閱讀文件;第二個星期,我努力地完全佈置的任務。這樣的辦公室生活卻在為期一個星期的訓練而暫停。

在上班的第三個星期,我跟一同入職的六個同事飛往上海上課。本來穩定的作息時間一下子被打亂,每天睡不到六個小時。從日數來看,一個星期是挺長的時間;從課程內容來看,一個星期卻又太短了。每天從早上八時半開始,晚上七時結束,然後開會趕團隊任務,最晚的一次是凌晨四時半才回到酒店。每一天都學習到大量的知識,每一天都感覺到自己的不足和渺小。這個課程所教的,跟我現在的職位沒有太多的幫助,有時我會安慰自己:沒關係,我擅長的不是這個,不會也沒關係。可是,我又不甘心淪為一顆不起眼的棋子,我渴望逃離象牙塔,成為一個能夠侃侃而談的人。我告訴自己,別管年齡學歷,其他人能做到的我也該做到。這一次,我不積極,保持以往不主動的性格;這一次,我踏出了一步,鎮定地在同事前匯報所準備的分析。下一次,我該有所改變,承擔起隊長的責任,迎戰所有刁難似的提問。


在看清自己不足的同時,我也收穫了友情。每天十多個小時的相處,一同渡過煎熬的時期,我們從陌生的同事,變成有革命情感的朋友。我們來自不同地域,有上海的,有深圳的,有北京的,上課結束後就各自回到崗位,下次相見不知是何期。我會珍藏這份回憶。


回到香港,這次學到的東西不知還能剩下多少。但我希望,我至少能記住的不是知識,而是我的渺少與不甘心。是一次又一次地泯然於人群中,還是成為一個起眼的存在,就看我能不能戰勝懦弱了。

寫於滯留在浦東機場的颱風日。

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四十天的實習


這個夏天,我找到了一份在人力資源部做網頁設計的實習。

上半年去了英國留學,六月尾回來時的實習空缺已經屈指可數,幸好我從中發現了一份在宏利公司做關於WeChat的工作。經過繁複的行政工作,一個月後正式上班,開啟四十天的實習旅程。

在這四十天,我原本的工作時設計一些適合手機瀏覽的網頁,以及研究WeChat 官方帳戶平台提供的功能。但是基於種種原因,四十天過後,能夠面世的網頁只有兩個,亦是我在本職上僅有的貢獻。

其實我做的網頁不只兩個,嚴格數一下的話,它們也只是用了我八九天的時間。剩下的時間,有一部分是用來設計一個很資料性的網站,可是因為使用體驗不理想而擱置;有一部分是研究於WeChat上設置投票功能,但是不知道網站系統是否支援而中斷;剩下來的一部分,就是在幫忙籌備活動。

在這四十天裡,有過迷惘,源於工作種類與我的所長漸行漸遠;有過沮喪,源於別人的不理解;有過難忘,源於活動完滿舉行而如釋重負。我滿足嗎?滿足,只是不是來自我本職上的成就感。我開心嗎?開心,因為很幸運地認識了四個青澀的伙伴。

說起來,我真的很感謝這四個同伴。一起午飯,免卻了以往一個人吃飯的孤獨;不斤斤計較,工作上不用一個人硬撐。每天上班都不會苦悶,因為我們可以像中學生活般,吵吵鬧鬧。人生漫長,能夠有一段四十天長的溫馨回憶,已教人知足。

除了他們,我也很感謝她們。沒有架子的上司們,讓我放下緊張感。真的,每一天都是美好的。倘若我不是讀IT的話,這裡是一個不錯的選擇。

實習過後,就迎來我的畢業季,最後一個學年。畢業之後,我又會在哪裏工作,在哪裏展開人生新的一章呢?

 

What a Terrible Day..

Today is definitely a terrible day for me.

I spent more than one week to develop a website, and everything is fine when it is run on my local server, but there are lots of issues when it is deployed to the real server. I  am really frustrated as I have spent the whole day trying to fix it and right now I still do not have any solution.

The second thing is the hot water supply stopped from yesterday in my accommodation. And now the water from the shower is still terribly cold. I did not take a bath yesterday, and it seems this gonna happen again.

Thirdly, originally there is a badminton practice this afternoon. When I arrived at the sports center, I saw all of the player standing next to the reception. Oh gosh, the court bookings are canceled accidentally. So I spent two pounds for traveling to the sports center and immediately returning to my hall.

Anything else? Yes. The annoying Arsenal did not win today match. That’s fine. Just completely say goodbye to the champion. She gets used to it.

Sigh…

Awful feeling

What a shame today! I prepared stuff for the disucussion in seminar, but when I spoke, it was just a mess. Unclear ascent and vibrating voice made me want to hide. How come my spoken English is that poor… Do I forget my orginal purpose for this exchange study? It was, i am not sure is or was, to improve my English speaking skill. Is it too late to start now? At least I wake now, I will try to watch American drama for every spare moment. Let start from the Big Bang theory.

It’s really a shame. My classmate told me, though I am not sure do I hear him correctly, that “You make it very worse…”. Any underground hole for me?

Forth week

Nothing special. I write as I think that even an ordinary day will be my precious memory when looking back. I hope I can insist to write diary twice a week, if not everyday.

Today, it’s a real semester start date for me, as I spend my whole afternoon, literally four hours, in the computer lab to catch up the course progress. The assignment is really not appealing to me as it talks about sound wave. It is totally a physics thing, but I am studying computer science. The only good thing from it is that I was inspired and a new app idea comes up my mind.

I buy a return ticket to London at noon. Finally I get in touch with local people frequently.

I purchase a Manchester United vs Watford ticket with my Singaporean friend, Brian.

I cook everyday, though all the food is either boiled or baked (“oven-ed”?)

I watch a TV drama called Reply 1988. It was really impressive. I am still trapped in the plot. It talks about family, love and friendship in 1988 Korea, at a really really warm alley (hutong?). “Technology gives up many things, but also wipes away something unnoticed but vital to me, the milk of human kindness, from the close neighborhood relationship, from childhood sweethearts, from small, crowded and warm houses.

I try to be sensible to my surroundings. Capture every item that worth keeping. Hard to express what I mean, but you will see the meaning as time goes on.

Third week

Wow…Time flies. This is already the third week that I have been in Manchester. I generally did not do anything special, same things repeat everyday, i.e. wake up, eat, lecture, eat, sleep. The only one special thing I did is to watch a Manchester United match at the Old Trafford Stadium.

It seems that my exchange time will be a great waste if I keep on this living style. Therefore I start to plan traveling. Basically I will first visit London withing the coming the 2 weeks, and travel to Spain, Germany, France and etc. during Easter vacation. Perhaps during weekends I will have some day trips in different cities of UK.

Currently the biggest annoyance is to spend my spare time in weekdays afternoon and night. I am still searching for a suitable part-time job, as well as working on the start-up jobs which is at the really initial stage.

Again, let my cooking pictures end this piece of blog.

Start something new…

As I am on exchange in the Manchester, I wanna create a blog to record all the things happen here, as well as a good starting point to write down anything about my life.

These few days made me quite bored as I only cooked and slept repeatedly. I expect the following week, which the semester starts, will interest me.

Below are all the meals I cooked these days. They don’t look so good as I am not a good cook. But I believe it will improve as time goes on 🙂